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Shiori and I are going out for a walk.
Let me know if you need me to pick up anything.



[Private to Neji/Unhackable]

We need to talk.


[Private to Tenten/Unhackable]

Now what happened tonight?

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
Not text, Neji. We need to talk, not text.

Now, what has been happening between you and Tenten?

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
[An aggravated sigh, and a lengthy pause as he considers how to summarize everything]

I seem to have been failing in every aspect of being some combination between teammate and friend since Tenten's arrival.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
One does that from time to time.

What has your response to this been?

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
You can forget you have a cut until you irritate it.

How else am I supposed to react to being told something like that? I was aware Tenten had problems with me not talking to her about Lee seeing as you told her about it, so she knew and grew increasingly frustrated as I didn't say anything about it, but now it seems it goes much further than that, and I'm not even sure how I managed it.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
It can get infected regardless. Usually one washes it and fixes it as soon as they realize they have said cut.

That didn't answer my question, Neji. You informed me how she reacted, but how did you react?

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
Not always.

I told her if that was the case, perhaps she should find a different teammate.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
Why not?

Alright. So say she finds one. What about you?

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
Smaller ones heal on their own quickly enough.

I can't fail people that aren't depending on me.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
It doesn't hurt to try to take care of even the small ones. You never know when a pinprick might be the cut that causes you to amputate an arm.

I suppose not, no. Then do you become a hermit?

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
And sometimes they're ignored in favor of the larger and more pressing injuries.

[Another sigh- this one more tired than anything] I confess I haven't thought that far, as a recent development.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 09:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
Maybe, but if you don't take care of everything eventually, it'll all come back in the end.

I see. Because there are very few positions, aside from a hermit, that someone doesn't depend on at least a little. Even a doormat is depended on to be there for muddy shoes.

But going back to the issue at hand, why do you feel as if you may have failed Tenten, enough to even go so far as to cut ties with her?

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 09:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
Even that knowledge won't prevent everything.

So far, I've only failed at being a teammate- not a 'housewife.'

I haven't cut ties with her, Kakashi-sensei, but she's made it clear that I'm....I have fallen rather short of the standard in some fashion.

[Long pause and then with some conviction,]

...I never fall below standard, sensei.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 09:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
Knowledge is worth nothing without action, Neji. It's not the information, it's the act of doing something with it. And while nothing can prevent everything, it's better to have done something than to have let it go unattended to.

Oh? I don't think I mentioned housewife or questioned your abilities with managing the household. But you yourself expressed a desire not to have dependents to fail.

And a housewife is very depended on. Without him, the house falls apart. He is the axle of a team comprised of his household. He needs to be a teammate above all others.


Has she now...

So she's asking you to live up to your potential. Instead of running away from that challenge...Rise to it. It's like training: evaluate where your weaknesses are and learn to overcome them. Don't just compensate or ignore; fix.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 11:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
Regardless, some things will be overlooked.

Then they seem not to have such high standards.

It's easy to say to 'fix' something, when the main problem is very general. Solutions- not vague and abstract ideas.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-03 06:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
Only because you choose to overlook them.

Why? Because housemates depend on a housewife? I am not saying you haven't failed in that faculty too, only that if you care to hold that position, you will have to prove yourself as a teammate. You will have to be better than you have been.


Of course it is easy to say. Neji, I am a teacher. I am here to help you understand, not to supply answers. The answers, the specifics, are for you to discover for yourself. I can only point you in the right direction. I will not hold your hand. You are an adult; if you want to be treated as one, act like one. If you are not willing to do the work yourself, you are not fit to bear the title of ninja, let alone the rank of jounin.

There is a problem. We have established that. So if you want a solution, let's work on that. But I will not fix it for you; I refuse to hand it to you on silver platter. It would be worthless and empty if you have not earned it yourself.


So here's the question, Neji: Do you really want a solution? Do you want this fixed?

Or do you just want to wallow in being wronged by Tenten, by me, by Fate, and by this world, and never do anything about it?

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-03 07:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
Not if they were forgotten.

I do not expect anyone to fix whatever this is, for me, sensei, as I said I am only looking to be directed to the solution. Do not make me repeat myself unnecessarily.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-03 07:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
You need a better memory, then.

Then listen to me, Neji. Listen to what I said to you and don't make me repeat myself unnecessarily, either. You need to do the work yourself; you are not even trying. You don't respect your team enough to even try.

I am not going to think for you, which is what you're asking me to do. You're a genius; think.

If you want a solution, step back and look at the information you've been given. It's like a math problem. Somewhere in 2 and 2 there is a four waiting to be found. You just have to take apart the pieces, look closely, and add them up.

Think. What were Tenten's complaints against you? What were your responses? How might your responses have come off to her? Put yourself in her shoes and consider her position. Now, put her into your shoes. Imagine how she interprets you and your actions. Feelings aside, what do you see? Facts. What happened and what has been happening? Cause and effect. Take it apart, and find the solution.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-03 08:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
Don't tell me I don't respect my team if trying equates to having time to think over the situation for proper evaluation.

As for Tenten's complaints, I don't currently see the merit in them, but we'll see what some consideration does for that. It'd be most appreciated if I could be left alone about it in the process.

[Voice] [Private/Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-03 08:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
Fine. I have a dog to walk.

[User is Offline]

[Voice]

Date: 2009-12-03 08:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
And he has the nerve to insinuate that I'm childish.

[User is Offline]
Edited Date: 2009-12-03 08:26 am (UTC)

ooc:

Date: 2009-12-03 08:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
He gave Neji what Neji asked for: time alone to think about it. "It'd be most appreciated if I could be left alone about it in the process."

ooc:

Date: 2009-12-03 09:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenly-earth.livejournal.com
Fully aware, dearest, but it sounded as though he cut him off abruptly in a way that was crass. xD; He'd be lying if he said he hadn't thought about closing the conversation similarly a few times though ♥

[Private//Unhackable to Kakashi]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenlykunai.livejournal.com
You're not talking about me not getting to play with the puppy, are you.

We tried to talk. I... I owe you an apology before I say anything else, though. The other night, after he looked into Itachi's eyes, I was trying to convince him that he could trust me. So I mentioned Lee. I'm sorry. And it didn't even help. It made things worse for us, and probably for you too.

And tonight... Ugh. Actually, the easiest way... He'll kill me, but he already is ready to stop being teammates, so why not? I'll open the filter to you so you can see the conversation, if you want? Or do you want me to summarize?
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
No, I'm not.

It's fine, Tenten. Nothing to be sorry for. I knew it would still have to be said eventually. It's important that he has that secret off his shoulders with at least one of his teammates and has a confidante in you, especially now, with Lee here again.

I'd prefer a summary. I don't trust the PCDs, so opening filters might expose to him that you did so.

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenlykunai.livejournal.com
But I said it so soon, and it didn't help a thing.

Right. It started out fine. He was thankful I was fine with the rooming assignments. I said I was glad because then I got to still feel a part of things. And... I don't even know how it happened, but he was then telling me that because he's a Jounin and we would be soon enough too that we won't stay together. I redirected him to now, and asked him to be more open. Um. The topic of hurt came up, and I pointed out something Hawke said to me about good hurts, and that's where things got weird and tense again, because he decided to get offended or something. Said their perspectives weren't the same.

I told him to be friendlier and more open, especially with me, several different ways, because he kept not getting it or redirecting it. Then he told me to be clear, and was clear that he was pissed, at you and me, for the Lee thing and the conversation on his last thing.

And I stupidly told him that you were being supportive in a way that he hadn't been here. I said you'd be just as supportive of him if he let you, in the same breath, but he ignored that part. So now he's saying he should be reassigned.

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
Maybe it will take time. Neji reacts like a wounded animal; he lashes back.


I see. I'm not entirely sure how it soured, but I can imagine, to a degree, he went into it with a grudge and somewhat looking for a fight. Anything you might have said could set him off, and the jounin part sounds like a way for him to withdraw further.

Neji seems to prefer to crawl into his den to lick his wounds when he's hurt. It also sounds like him not being part of Team Gai is more for Neji's benefit than for you. He'd prefer to not think of himself as having people to lose.

We'll just have to see what we can do to draw him out again, hm?

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenlykunai.livejournal.com
I think everyone lashes back...

He might have. I really thought we had a chance to talk things out and then it devolved again.

No one... no one wants to lose people. Or think about losing people. But he can't ignore that he's part of a team; he's not stupid.

Yes, si-- Kakashi.

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
Perhaps. Each in our own way, though.

Some people bury problems instead of destroying them. Anything buried can be dug up again, sometimes with only a word or a wrong look.

Many before him have ignored it, some just as intelligent as Neji. We're in the business of losing people, here more than ever. Some cope by removing the source of the problem--that is, removing the people before they're lost.

It solves nothing. It's only a temporary relief.

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenlykunai.livejournal.com
...I... But is bringing it up over and over and trying to talk about it any better than hiding it? I'm not getting anywhere. And he's just getting more upset. Unless... How did you know we argued again? Did he maybe try to talk to you? Because then maybe that's good. ...Or it could have been me getting annoyed in the kitchen, too.

I just... I don't think he's entirely in the wrong, because it takes at least two to fight, but I don't know what I'm doing wrong, and he probably doesn't see what he's doing wrong. So maybe that's why we keep going in circles and getting nowhere.

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
I am a ninja, Tenten. I do have my ...ways of gathering information, even on teammates. Especially on teammates.

Probably. Let me see if I can find out his side of the story and maybe we can figure out where you're wrong too. Maybe then we can draw even.

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenlykunai.livejournal.com
We're all ninjas, Kakashi. Being mysterious about it isn't going to work with me, I'm sorry. [But at least now there's a little smile there.]

All right.

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
But a ninja never reveals his secrets. [ ^_^ ]

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenlykunai.livejournal.com
They do to teach other ninja. All of the time.

[Private//Unhackable]

Date: 2009-12-02 08:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heavenlykunai.livejournal.com
Oh well. It was worth a shot.

Date: 2009-12-02 07:23 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] saucey
...Be careful. Don't stay out too long.

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