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Sasuke, we need to talk, as soon as you get a moment alone.

[Meaning, we can talk over the PCD, but I don't really want you talking where the mean Uchiha will hear you, ok?]


Date: 2010-06-01 03:51 am (UTC)
saucey: (カカシ/サスケ » hang on)
From: [personal profile] saucey
[He knew this would come eventually.]



Date: 2010-06-01 03:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
[It's probably later than it should have come, but Kakashi was trying to keep most everyone happy by not taking a stance. Now everyone's unhappy, so... He's doing what he wants to do.]

Why don't we start at the beginning? What happened? And what are you planning to do now?


Date: 2010-06-01 04:01 am (UTC)
saucey: (カカシ/サスケ » what you've got)
From: [personal profile] saucey
I don't...remember much from Saturday night, just that Itachi and Snape brought them both back to the house, unconscious and bleeding. When...I woke up, back to normal and everything, Itachi told me what happened.

That's...why I blew up. My reaction was...exactly the same as Madara's. [And he doesn't look too thrilled about that.]

I wanted to go after her so badly, but...it wasn't even her. I don't...know what to do.
Edited Date: 2010-06-01 04:03 am (UTC)


Date: 2010-06-01 04:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
I see. [He's listening, trying to figure out what to say to you. He doesn't see why you even care about Izuna and Madara, but then he understands why you don't care for Konoha either. Right now, frankly, he doesn't care for either side.]

You don't sound like you really want to agree with Madara. Tenten was once your ally--all of Konoha once was.

Would you really attack her at the risk that all of Konoha's ninja would come after you? I know you're angry, but revenge isn't the answer. It never is. You pursue revenge, and pretty soon you've either killed or alienated everyone you care about. And once you've killed your target, you're left with nothing to come back to.

That's not what you want, is it, Sasuke?


Date: 2010-06-01 04:55 am (UTC)
saucey: (サスケ » angsty)
From: [personal profile] saucey
[He's quiet for a long time, mulling over everything. He loved his team. They were like family to him. But he treasured his real family even more, possibly even more than his own life. Sasuke chewed on his lip lightly as he glanced away from the PCD.

He had even told the Shodaime that his choice was Konoha, as long as Konoha did not attack his family. Though, that 'family' consisted of mainly Izuna and Itachi.]

... I hardly have anything left to go back to anyway.

But...I don't care who it was, I'm not...going to let them away with what they did so easily. Even if...I'm still weak.


Date: 2010-06-01 05:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
You have your team. Don't let Naruto come back to find you're an enemy of the village.

[His voice is firm. He's not going to baby you, Sasuke. He loves you, sometimes this is unfortunate, but he's not going to coddle you. You won't learn from that. Besides, the problem has been ignored long enough.]

Of course, you understand that as a ninja of Konoha, I cannot teach you knowing you plan to use those skills in revenge against Konoha.

You are my student. You will always be my student. But I can't sit by and let you ruin your own life and that of others. You've made amends with your brother. You no longer need to get revenge with him...and you don't need to get revenge for him, either. Itachi can take care of himself.

Maybe you don't care about Konoha, but Sakura, Alphonse, Hitsugaya...they care about you. If you pursue revenge, you will hurt them. You will destroy the people you hold dear--and that is all you have left, Sasuke. You can't cling to a family you no longer have: Madara is not your family. Izuna is not your family. It doesn't matter that he shares your clan name--he doesn't care about you. They want to use you. Revenge is part of it.

Don't let them do that.


Date: 2010-06-01 05:58 am (UTC)
saucey: (サスケ » tch...)
From: [personal profile] saucey
[You put him in a hard place, Kakashi. A very hard place and a rock. He loved them all. Sakura, Al, Toushirou, Itachi... but he loves Izuna, too. Sometimes, Izuna pays more attention to him than Itachi does, so he can't...exactly believe everything.]

I... I know. I know... [He knows he's hurt Sakura and Hitsugaya a lot, too. Much more than he ever intended to.]

But... I love Izuna, too.


Date: 2010-06-01 06:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
[Sometimes you have to be put in a hard place to be forced to make a necessary decision. Kakashi will put you in a hard place if necessary, because he wants this to work for Sakura and Alphonse and Hitsugaya. Especially Hitsugaya, because the poor kid seems to put in so much effort for Sasuke's sake.]

I hope you really do know, Sasuke. I'm not sure you do. I think we've all been soft on you because Konoha has been so critical--you don't realize how hard this has been on your friends. How far you've been pushing them away.

[Hearing that HURTS. But Kakashi doesn't show it.] But with Izuna comes Madara. Do you want to spend time with Izuna knowing that puts you close to Madara? And farther from your friends?


Date: 2010-06-01 06:32 am (UTC)
saucey: (サスケ » suuuuuuuuuuuuun)
From: [personal profile] saucey
[He really does. And all he's done to show his appreciation is go behind his back and do things Hitsugaya told him not to anyway. And, really, spending as much time with Itachi as he does? Doesn't make Hitsugaya happy either. But what can you do about it, really?]

I've hurt my friends, as few as they are, more times than I ever intended to. I know that. I've...done a lot of stupid things lately. I've done even more than that since coming here last year.

I even refused to move when Hitsugaya asked me to, because I was happy where I was. That...only got me a target on my back from Saul. [He'll just bite down on his lip and sit back, letting his head hit the back of the wall he's sitting against.]

We... rarely bump into Madara, when I'm visiting. It's always when he's gone, or Izuna visits himself. He...treats me better than my own father did. I...I know people aren't...comfortable with it, because of Madara, but I can't just... cut him out of my life now.

[Dammit sensei, why all the difficult questions? ;;]


Date: 2010-06-01 07:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
[What can we do indeed? We could turn our backs on you, Sasuke. If Sakura, Alphonse, and Hitsugaya actually did something against him, gave him an ultimatum, he would have to change to get them back.]

If you know you've done things to hurt them, why keep doing these things? Do you value your friends so little--and yourself so much more?

[Saul...Kakashi needs to have a talk with Carmen.]

No, I'm not comfortable with it. I know you think you need a replacement father, Sasuke, but I don't think you should go this route.

Rarely seeing Madara doesn't mean you're free of his control. He has power over Izuna, over that household. You're viewed as being allied with him, and that makes his enemies your enemies. If you're going to be dragged into someone else's fights, at least make sure it's someone who will protect you. Madara won't protect you, and Izuna cannot.

And Hitsugaya can't keep coming to get you when you nearly die because of your association with Madara. You can't make him do that. If you care about him at all, Sasuke, you'll stop putting yourself in jeopardy.


Date: 2010-06-01 07:17 am (UTC)
saucey: (サスケ » fetal position)
From: [personal profile] saucey
[Everything you just said just hit him where it hurts the most.]

I don't... [Small pause. He doesn't know why he does it, he just does. But--] I don't! I never have!

[And now he'll go from biting his lip to biting his thumb. Worryworry.]

I'm not...looking for a replacement. Nothing can replace my family. [Just more chewing, here, as he thinks back to the Kyuubi incident. Itachi couldn't protect him then, either, only attempt to prevent the inevitable. And that...

His other hand reached up to touch his chest lightly, where the bandages underneath hid his scarred skin. Hitsugaya was the one that saved him. He was the one that carried him, unconscious and nearly bled out to Unohana, where he was unconscious for who knows how long.

And he knew the shinigami didn't want to go through that panic again. This is where he just deflates a little, as if something out of all of this is starting to sink in.]

Edited Date: 2010-06-01 07:19 am (UTC)


Date: 2010-06-01 07:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
[Maybe it's what he needed to hear, because Sasuke may break now, but everyone breaks eventually, and if Sasuke keeps getting away with pushing...one of his precious people will break when he decides he needs them again.]

Actions speak louder than words, Sasuke. Maybe, if you really believe what you said, you need to prove it to them.

Nothing can replace your friends, either. [Kakashi's expression softens just a little. Barely.] So don't push them away. Once they're gone [for whatever reason] then you won't be able to find replacements for them, either. So cherish them while they're here.

And give them the opportunity to do cherish you, too.

[He watches Sasuke carefully, not fully sure if he's gotten through, but hoping Sasuke's at least thinking things through now, realizing where he's put Hitsugaya all this time, and what his actions have meant for everyone. Kakashi's not sure what he will do--what any of them will do--if this and other things don't work this time. They could have a real problem if Sasuke continues on his previous course.]

...I believe you're capable of doing the right thing, Sasuke.


Date: 2010-06-01 07:42 am (UTC)
saucey: (カカシ/サスケ » what you've got)
From: [personal profile] saucey
[He's lost several friends during his stay here, mainly of the Naruto variety. But he's lost Roxas, too. He's lost his brother twice, too, and watched Al die. It hurt, and he really wishes he still has Naruto and Roxas with him, especially now.

And all of his friends have watched him knock on death's door how many times now? At least three, right? This was getting out of hand.

Someone had to open his eyes a little. He was glad it was his sensei.

Sasuke's hands drop down to his side, and he's still not look directly at the PCD. But he leans his head back and just closes his eyes. This is extremely hard for him.]

...I'm sorry.


Date: 2010-06-01 07:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
[Kakashi wanted to have this talk so many times. But he was scared, too, because he was afraid of alienating and losing Sasuke completely, more than he had already, afraid of having Sasuke see him as an enemy just like the rest of Konoha. And he didn't want to be Sasuke's enemy. Kakashi isn't like the others from Konoha. His Konoha has yet to face Pein. Asuma and Jiraiya are not dead, nor is Itachi... Sasuke is missing, but not yet a missing nin. There is still a faint, faint hope.]

[And on top of all that, this is still the Sasuke who is his student. Sasuke is not innocent, he's not free from blame, but he's not yet a criminal. And he doesn't have to be. If Kakashi could change at 13, so can Sasuke.]

[Maybe now was the only time they could have this talk. Maybe Sasuke (and Kakashi) had to lose Naruto and Itachi and others to fully see what little they do have to cling to. Sasuke had to reach this low to come to terms with where he was putting others...and himself.]

I know, Sasuke. But don't tell me. Show your friends.


Date: 2010-06-01 06:05 pm (UTC)
saucey: (サスケ » uh huh)
From: [personal profile] saucey
[Finally, he sits up straight again, and glances down at the PCD. He looks... Lost. Conflicted, confused, without a clue as to what to do next or...anything, really.]

... How? I'm not...good at that kind of stuff.


Date: 2010-06-02 05:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] turn-a-blindeye.livejournal.com
That's not really an excuse, Sasuke. I'm a sensei, and I'm not going to hand you answers: find them yourself. You can start by apologizing to them...and then carrying through with what you promise.

You're a human being; you like being treated well, and fairly, just like everyone else. Show them the same courtesy. Don't drag your friends through this. Don't force them to chose between you and everyone else--because eventually, they won't choose you if choosing you means putting you over their responsibilities to others they care about and their responsibilities to themselves.

Respect them, love them... Don't make them give up what they love and want to cater to you.


Date: 2010-06-02 05:46 am (UTC)
saucey: (サスケ » angstyish look)
From: [personal profile] saucey
[This...is going to be so, so awkward. Especially since he doesn't really...apologize to people all that often. Like to people he doesn't like at all.

He'll look away again, and give a small nod. He's not good at any of this, really, so he'll just have to find a way to at least awkwardly do it and hope that it helps, at least a little.]


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